MOVING TO NEW SITE


I just wanted to let everyone know that I am not missing, instead I have ventured into the wonderful world of my own website!

http://www.craftyartistkc.com is now live. Although it is not completed, I am slowly transitioning my posts over to the new site. Please please please go check it out and subscribe via email. I will be adding a lot more ways to follow me, but for now, please subscribe via email.

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9 days


As I look at my last post, 9 days ago, I think about everything that has gone on in my life since then. I quit drawing, I quit writing, I quit blogging and I even quit working. My family was in crisis mode. When my family is in crisis mode, we band together and block all other things out. I am so blessed to be a part of the family that surrounds a member if they are going through something traumatic.

In my last post, “Dealing with Loss”, I wrote about losing my sister-n-law. But it was so much more than losing her physically. My brother lost his wife, my 2-year-old nephew lost his mother, and we lost a family member. During a time of loss, often times we lash out where there isn’t a problem. We get bruised easier by things that would normally roll off our back. We break down wherever we can find a place of solitude, for me, it was in the shower.

I also lost my grandmother, who I had been unable to visit for several years due to going through my own life crisis of divorce and becoming a single parent. Readjusting my entire life and trying to find out who I am, who I want to be and who I need to be. Just because I wasn’t able to see her though, didn’t mean that she wasn’t in my thoughts. I have very fond memories of her making me and my sister matching dresses, even if they did have frills. I remember every single Christmas, we would receive a wrapped shoebox full of all the goodies that she baked. And even though we all knew it was goodies, every year we were excited to see what came.

Just like with my sister-n-law, my grandmother always thought of others. They both were the types to go out of their way to make sure that every need they saw was met in one way or another. This world should be sad at the loss of not one, but two giving souls. They will both truly be missed.

So, how do I move on from here? I could stay saddened and burdened by the loss, or I can carry on the works of those two very special ladies. I’ve always had an empathetic point of view. I have always fought for the underdog and supplied where I saw a need. So those things, won’t change for me. But what I did find out was, I don’t have a lot of pictures of myself. Of course, I’m the type that would shy away from them, cursing the flash photography and family gatherings. But what I haven’t been thinking of, is the day I am gone from this earth. What memories will I leave behind?

So, it is my goal to touch more lives. To draw and not be so scared of what others might think about it. To sing, and not be ashamed of my happiness. To play with my kids and bring happiness into their lives. To compliment more, whether it is friends, family, co-workers or strangers. To help when I see someone struggling without having to be asked. To be understanding that we never know what is going on in other’s lives.

So, I know that if 9 days can change my life this drastically, it can change my view of how quickly life events can change others. My advice to you is laugh more, sing more, play more and be more positive. Be the change you wish to see in the world. If we all tried to be a little more positive, we could easily change the world into a more beautiful existence.

Who am I? Why am I here?


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Who Am I?

I am a mother of 3 beautiful children under 7 and have mothered a step-son who is now 16. I find it very difficult to disconnect from a step-child after the divorce. I want, very much to be his mother still, but he is figuring out life and at that stage that is hard to reconnect with him. But alas, I will sit back and be here when he wants to return, or needs anything.

I am a  girlfriend to an amazing man that has given me so much confidence and unconditional love, which I never knew or thought was even possible for me. We both work full time and have very different hobbies. We work together in the same company, just different divisions. Riding to and from work with him is sometimes the only time we have to ourselves.

I am an artist. By this I do not mean just pen and paper, but with everything I do. I work in accounting and the organizational skills I utilize amazes my co-workers. I love that! I love to bake food and sweets for my family and friends, and often marathon my cookie making towards the end of the year. (Which is why I haven’t blogged about it yet!) I love to try new avenues for stress management.

I sing, I get lost in music, I’m a self taught pianist, and have written a few songs. Music is such a huge thing in my life. There is an amazing sense of wonder and relaxation when a song comes on that someone has poured their emotions into. It takes you away from your stressful situation, It releases you from obligation and it allows you to just be. I love music. I love accapella music as well. To find a group that just speaks to your heart with no instruments is a rare thing. So I tend to hold onto the groups I have found.

Why am I here?

Sit down and let me tell you a story. Ha! Its not that complicated. I am here because I want to inspire others. I want to be the reason someone tries something different. I want to be the reason someone doesn’t give up. I want to be the reason that change occurs in someone’s life. Maybe that makes me selfish.

I love to hear the stories of how someone inspired another to greatness. So, I try, I don’t give up and I work to make changes happen. I am on a path to enlightenment. I want to achieve greatness myself, to show the world that it is possible to rise from the ashes of a previous existence.

I want to share my experiences and my talent with others. I want people to learn from me. I want to be that someone that cares when others don’t. I’m reaching out for personal connections with people, especially those that may not get it otherwise. Life is too short for us to give up on humanity. So I choose to rise above the negativity. I choose to be different. I choose to think before I speak. I choose to put myself in someone else’s shoes before I judge them.

Am I perfect? Far from it my friend. But I choose to strive for perfection because I know that it will only make me a better person and my environment better for those around me. I choose to share my talent and my personal struggles with you in this blog. I choose to inspire.